My search for the Truth... (Re: Owners)

Read the message below this message before reading this message. grin. Both are emails to elists I decided I wanted on my blog.
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You cannot offend me, so no problem there. Grin. Thanks for posting your thoughts. We need to do more of that if we want the world to survive.

I don't have 'credentials' or anything but my own search for the Truth. I define Truth by what I have determined to have actually happened, not by other people's theories or opinions about the Truth. But even that goes on a scale with 'very probable' at the top and 'very unlikely' at the bottom. I trust only my own senses and my own talents as far as what happened, and that's while knowing that my brain filters my sensory input to some degree.

The story of the Owners did not come from idle speculation. When I was 10 years old, I realized the world could be sterilized by a thermonuclear war. That was obvious to everyone. From that point on, I refused to believe anything I was told, which made life in school pure hell. Being a military dependent, we moved a lot, almost every year, and in each place, the people had different ways of looking at things, assembling the data in their minds, and their opinions were incredibly different although in each place we lived, there was a 'common sense' which held certain basic beliefs and attitudes that marked that place and the way the people lived and talked and acted. This got me very curious about why these differences existed, common to each place we lived, and how were the differences alike in the wider function of thought.

When I graduated, I started a series of experiments to find out what was really going on. I became a Green Beret to study the subculture I was raised in, and after I dropped LSD, which showed me my own basic beliefs and attitudes, giving me a chance to expunge them or alter them or accept them based on experience, I became a real headache to the military and they were very glad to get rid of me. I did as I pleased yet they couldn't bust me, which really shook their tree. I've told the story of what happened during the Great March on Washington, the Moratorium, and how the 82nd Airborne Division refused to go to Washington and kill the protesters. That shook me up big time, since I had no inkling before that experience that there was something larger than purely individual humans and their actions.

After I got out, I traveled extensively and joined many groups to see how they thought. I hitchhiked across the country over and over again, just because when they pick up a hitchhiker who was interested and would listen, (who they would never probably see again,) complete strangers from all walks of life would tell their deepest secrets and attitudes and opinions and life experiences to the strange hippie sitting next to them in the darkness.

I figured out that it was the pattern of beliefs and experiences which created their deepest world models, and then I set out to find out what changed their beliefs and the filtering of their experiences. That's when I realized that social subcultures were larger than any individual yet caused intense changes in each individual's way of looking at the world. So I started studying social subcultures. Remember, beyond my constant obsession with sex, I had a great motivator... I thought the world might well sterilize itself, and I didn't want that to happen. The Universe is too beautiful and intense to just blow away the sensory experience of a planet full of life.

I realized that the social subcultures had to start sometime, there had to be a first time, a first decision by a single person, to create the social subculture which had ballooned out into the world from that time on. SO I started studying pre-history and history, looking for that first time by the absence of it before that first time. Since almost everything I read was biased towards 'western civilization' and those sets of ideas and attitudes, I decided to go by evidence instead of theory, and form my own theories. I spent years studying in libraries and every source of info I could find, using the archaeological artifacts found to base my study on, since the theories and conclusions I found were so incredibly slanted.

Then I realized one day that I was slanting the evidence. I had studied hundreds of thousands of little bits of data, artifacts, locations, etc, but the pattern I was getting was still obviously slanted. (Take two window screens and put them together, one on top of the other, then look through them as you turn one of them. You see patterns, and only when the patterns line up can you see through the screens clearly. That is how I knew I was slanting my conclusions.)

So I decided I had to see the world the way our most ancient ancestors saw it.

I went to the high desert in California, in Owens Valley, and lived in a cave without any technology at all. The experience was profound. I cast out all my previous ideas and tried to live like the nomadic no-tech people we came from. I ate what I could find, bugs mostly, small lizards, mice, etc, without cooking any of it. I wore only a loincloth because if the local ranchers saw a long haired man running naked through the desert and the Alabama Hills, (the place in Owen's Valley I had my cave) they might well shoot me.

After nearly a year, as the winter came on, I left the cave and went down to San Diego. I had learned something very important. I knew I would not survive in the desert alone during a winter. Social cooperation is essential for humans to survive. More eyes for predators, more hands to find food to share, and more brains to figure out problems. Interdependence is a survival trait for us and all life on the planet. (And love is the strongest glue for Interdependence. Love is ubiquitous, although the word is not antiquate to describe the reality.)

I learned how the world looked to the most primitive of peoples. So after that, I started to reintegrate all the data my mind was carrying, and it all pretty much fell into place. It comes down to 'what had to be discovered before the next thing was discovered which led to the next piece of technology which caused what changes in the social structure and interaction in tribes'.

I do not claim that what I told about our origins and the Owners is completely factual. That is, that my exact order of what came first and what came from that is perfect. It is a theory, but not a myth. I cannot list the huge number of artifacts and discoveries about the past that I sifted through, nor quote sources and all that. My talent never worked that way.

I continued to study prehistory, history, and our own culture. I realized that there was a pattern through it all, globally, which was by far the strongest of patterns, which defined our existence in the Human Culture more than anything else but one thing... natural interdependence. Natural interdependence is what keeps us alive, and the other pattern, the pattern that points to 'Owners' is like a thin layer of rust on the surface of something truly beautiful.

When I realized that those with the most resources and control over populations did not just disappear when their civilizations 'ended', I looked for the causes of that ending and what those powerful people did when that civilization ended. They destroyed their environment or used up the resources and then moved. They took it with them. And it was obvious also that they had a technology of social control that was largely not known of by most people, even now. The Farm was part of that discovery process, much like living in the cave. But the Farm, regardless of it's faults, had the most beautiful expression of natural interdependence I could find in the world. I learned a lot from it.

While coping with my deteriorating health, trying to find an income by learning and using computers, begging for money to live on, and all that, I was still searching for what was in the gaps in the patterns. By the time of the Bush Coup, I was sure about the Owners and the way the world would be going... (I was right about Gore winning that election, btw. He did, but it was taken away form him. That was a piece of the pattern that showed me the division between the older and younger generations of Owners.)

It is not a conspiracy. It's older than any conspiracy. Conspiracies think a group of people are trying to take something away from us, our rights, or our wealth, or something... but this is much more than that. We never had anything in the first place. The illusion of rights, wealth, or something was, and is, very tight in people's minds, but it is not real. It's not a new conspiracy, it's business as usual.

I've said in many posts that the Owners have a Tiger By The Tail. Regardless of who they are, how organized they are, if they are organized, or any other factor... the people who make the decisions which define the decisions we have to make, have a tiger by the tail. Less than 1% of the world's people OWN 99+ percent of the world's stuff, land, etc. You can read that in almost any encyclopedia. Bucky Fuller's World Inventory of Resources found that decades ago, 'in the last millennium'... (I love saying that phrase) and it seems to be true.

We have one natural right that cannot be taken from us. It exists in the tightest prisons and in the most totalitarian countries... we can communicate. Humans communicate. It is part of our social instinct and cannot be denied, as the Quakers found out when they built prisons where the criminals were totally alone and unable to communicate. It was a true experiment, although they didn't know it at the time. The prisoners went insane, the ones who did not find some way to communicate.

And communication produces expansion of the mind. It also produces confusion, fusion, doubt, certainty, emotions, and for some, comprehension. It is a principle of science that an experiment is not done until the results are communicated. My life has been an experiment, and I'm communicating. Believe it or not. I don't care about that. I've been on the thin edge of death for too long to worry about other's opinions. I can only speak my own conclusions and fear no man. Do the research yourself if you need proof, for only that way can you actually understand what I wrote. YOU have a head start, simply because of the ideas I have communicated. You can look for affirmation or rejection of those ideas. I started out only with the fact that my elders (the grownups) were insane, all of them, and, BOY, I've been proven right about that! LOL!